Thursday, August 21, 2014

I Miss you…

My Mother was heading for a very painful and lengthy death.  Her Mother and two of her sisters died a very painful and ugly death from Alzheimer's.  Mom was in the early stages and I could see it.  I am thankful she didn’t suffer this, it was one of her great fears.

I have been thinking of this day for weeks.  It’s half a year she has been gone.  Dad is still confused.  He told a doctor the other day she died last month, he was shocked when I corrected him.  And he questioned me about it when we got to the truck.  He loved her.  He never spoke one ill word of her.  I was alone with him one time several years ago and told him that I could not stand the way she treated him..and did he ever stand up for himself?!?  HE got MAD at me!  HE said that’s my girl – don’t you talk about her.  He was right…she was his girl before she was my Mother.

As I look back The Lord was preparing me for this time.  Several years ago my brother told me “you and Mom don’t have a normal relationship!”  She was my best friend.  She was my very best friend especially as I got older.  We would talk on the phone several times a day, play lottery tickets together, shop, eat at Olive Garden,  and have fun girl trips (till she got sick).  That’s the Mom I miss.  I miss my Mom that adored my hares.  I miss her humor.  I miss her telling me the same story over and over and over.

After my aneurysm the phone calls stopped.  She wouldn’t call me because she was scared she would wake me up.  I wouldn’t call her because I wouldn’t remember too.  The Lord started pulling us parting. to make it easier on me for the day he would take her home.

I miss my Mom.

If there was anyone on this earth that truly loved me and always had my back and my best interest at heart it was my Gertie.  and now she is gone.

I want so badly



just one more time…

to hear her say “oh Tina, it will be alright we’ll get through this!”

I love you Gertie.  I pray that today you are with Max, Richard, Clinton, Thelma, Mag and your beloved Aunt Helen.  That celebrations never stop.

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

And the Crowd Goes Wild!

I would like to be the first person to introduced the latest members of 4-H Clover Kids….drum roll please!  John, Taylor, and Paul.

Round of applause not necessary.Be right back

Tina…what is 4-H Clover Kids?

Glad you asked.

Clover Kids is a 4-H program for children ages 5-to 7- years old. Children participate in hands-on activities designed to build lots of different life skills

The most important life skills for the 5- to 7-year-old age group are:

• Respecting Self
• Communicating
• Solving Problems
• Thinking Critically
• Choosing Healthy Lifestyles

    What do Clover Kids do?

• Explore science with simple science experiments
• Practice communication skills
• Strengthen motor skills through arts and crafts
• Make friends and learn to work with peers
• And much more!

And learn all about horses.

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Looks like John is getting a new pair of boots for his birthday and maybe a cowboy hat.

Lots of fun in our future.  Our school year is taking shape.  The classroom is organized and the first week of school is planned. I have set-up tours of the bank, a TV station, and the Quarter Horse Museum for our little group over the next month.  We have a “meet the teacher night” next week for our co-op.  John starts gymnastics next week, Christina has dance on Thursdays.  And PaPa has VA visits almost every Tuesday.   And I joined a gym that I attend four days a week.  Hoch…and John’s birthday next week.

Too Much?  Overwhelming?

Not at all.  I am not Overwhelmed  because of new wisdom and knowledge I have received in this book by Pastor Perry Noble.  300x300xPNoverwhelmed-300x300.jpg.pagespeed.ic.gEPcDjbD1hI HIGHLY recommend it to anyone who has worry, depression , or anxiety….or just overwhelmed!  Pastor Noble helps through scriptures put everything back into perspective.  I have not felt this good since…in a long time.  

{Side note: he does have cRaZy eyes.  I also purchased the Bible study along with the book and his eyes are un-blink-able. A litttttle distributing but he is funny }  And the book and study are AMAZING!

I hope and pray all is well where you are.

Thanks for stopping by!


It’s Tuesday…so off to the VA we go!

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Why I Love Homeschool!


#10.  No need to buy a bunch of new clothes.  No dress code!  Although John does have to wear “day-time” clothes and not pajamas.  Very seldom do we have school in pjs although there may be a snow day or two that calls for warm jammies & hot cocoa.

#9.  No worries about bullies. Except his sister.  Just kidding that precious little hare couldn’t bully a fly..okay she is a little determined but not a bully.

#8.  No worries about  gun violence in the classroom.  A few water gun fights may spontaneously happen but no one get hurts.

#7.    Our time!  Whoo-Hoo!  We don’t have to get up at an early hour and we can set our own schedule.  I have everything planned so that we can have the entire month of December off.

#6.  It’s fun to watch John learn.  To see the little wheels in motion and then when he finally “gets it” …that is priceless.iphone 048

#5.  We make Bible lessons and Bible study a #1 priority.  John knows more about The Lord, the Bible, and Scriptures then I did at 35.  I love that he loves it and wants to learn more.

#4.  John learns at his speed.  If he doesn’t understand something we spend time on it and we don’t have to rush to the next subject.  We can think outside the box…even if it means taking the lesson outside or to a library.

#3.  Quality of friends.  I know all of John’s friends and their parents.  Thankfully these folks have the same ideas, values and beliefs as we do.

#2.  I get to see my son everyday.  I get to spend quality time with my son everyday.  If I would have died last summer I would have died knowing I didn’t miss a thing.  I am so thankful for that.

#1.  Randy and I get to determine what John learns and when he learns it. 

Anytime I talk about homeschooling I always want to include a disclaimer.    Homeschooling is NOT for everyone and I don’t think everyone SHOULD homeschool.  I have nothing against public or private schools - I believe there is a need for both.  Homeschooling  happens to work for our family.  It is hard work.  I don’t take John’s or Christina’s education lightly, it is a huge responsibility and I am so thankful I have this opportunity.

Watch for 2nd grade photos coming soon!!

Friday, August 1, 2014


My parents were all about the family vacation each summer and creating memories for me.   My standard answer to Randy when he asks what I want for my birthday, anniversary, or Christmas, my answer is always a family trip.  I don’t care if it’s to Canyon, Texas and we stay in a hotel for a few days.  I want and desire to make memories for my little hares.  Some of my most favorite memories are my family vacations.

The summer of 1986 I was 14 and my folks decided we would NOT go to West Virginia for our usual vacation…instead we would meet some of our WV family in Florida for the Disney World experience.  Not only was that different but my baby brother Larry decided to tag along…he was probably about 28.  He was excited to see our cousin Sandy..she was around the same age and they were close, plus it was DISNEY WORLD!me & LarryWe had a wonderful trip.  We got to eat breakfast with Mickey Mouse on a steamboat.  Sandy pulled a great prank on Larry.  Lots of great memories and laughs.  I will never forget my Dad saying “he lost 40 years of his life and felt like a kid again”..he was 54.  Great times. Mom and Dad

Thursday, July 31, 2014

Another Tough Day.

My Daddy called me yesterday at 10 am asking me what I was doing.  (We always call one another every morning just to check in.) Daddy was completely out of breathe and struggling to tell me what was going on.  He told me when I got  to “moving around and dressed to pick him up and take him to the ER at the VA.”  WHAT?!?!  He they proceed to tell me “I am pretty sure I am having a heart attack”.  WHAT?!?  I told to him “Get dressed and be waiting out back - I will be there in 2 minutes!”  I ran to my bedroom, found the first thing on the floor, my baseball hat, and flip-flops all while yelling to Randy what was going on.  On my way to the Dad’s house I called my prayer partner and the VA ER to let them know what was going on so they could be ready. 

The VA staff was ready!  It took no time to get his shirt off, get the nitro under his tongue and plugged him up.  And bless his heart…he was so scared and could not stop crying.  I got him calmed down and held his hand the entire time.IMG_0646  Once things got settled down a bit I said one of the hardest things to my Daddy I had ever spoken to him. “Daddy you don’t have to fight this fight anymore good and faithful servant.  I am releasing you to Momma.  If you wanna go home to be with her we will be alright.  I will take of your little hares and your sons. It’s okay.” He started crying again and I held his hand even tighter.  It was a sad but sweet moment.  He so loved my Mother.  I always knew he did.  He has never said one cross word about her and trust me she gave him lots of ammo but he never spoke bad about his beloved.  He loved her like no other.  And his heart literally aches for her.

So we waited.  Dad has taught we the Army way – “hurry up and wait”.  Dad was snoozing and I was playing on my pad when a very nice lady named Connie came in the room to “mental evaluate” Dad.  Really?!? “ Why is that I asked?”  Connie said the nurse noticed Dad weeping and wanted to make sure he was mentally okay and didn’t need to go to the Pavilion (local nut house).  I told her to evaluate all she wants but his sweetheart died less than 6 months ago and they were together more than 60 years.  He really misses my Momma.  She laughed and said evaluation not needed and gave me some info on grieve support groups for Dad.

So we waited some more.  They did a second round of blood tests and I ran to grab some lunch for myself.  Four hours later the doctor said Dad had a mild heart attack.  There is no more they can do for him except increase his daily nitro patch he wears daily.  We will need to follow-up with the VA cardiologist but he is out for 6 weeks because he had to have heart surgery and they don’t have a replacement, only a fill in doctor for extreme cases.  Go figure…  Dad has been living on borrowed time.  When he had his first heart attack in 2009 they said he would not live 2-3 years are at 5 years now.  Borrowed time my friends.  He is at home resting good.

As if that wasn’t enough I called to check on my sweet Nanny Ashley10420272_771979702824940_262146340751680535_n who has been sick over a week.  She has NOT gone to the doctor because she #1 doesn’t have insurance, and #2 she is a broke college student.  (Remember those days??)  I called and told her to meet me Care Xpress – I would pay for it.  Once you pay the initial $150.00 plus any additional tests you are an established patient there and your visits are only $77.00.  After waiting…and seeing the doctor…and getting her nose swabbed…..Ashley has THE FLU and an upper respiratory infection!  No shots but $170.00 in prescriptions. The first day she comes back to work I am going to introduce her to INSURANCE!  But I don’t want her back anytime soon if you know what I mean.  Get better Nanny-Foo-Foo your little hares miss you.

Ended the day at Wal-Mart.

Then I crashed and had bizarre dreams all night.

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Every Day Prayer

"Tina, the forgiven child of God. (Romans 3:24)
Tina, the set-free child of God. (Romans 8:1 – 2)
Tina, the accepted child of God. (1 Corinthians 1:2)
Tina, the holy child of God. (1 Corinthians 1:30)
Tina, the made-new child of God. (2 Corinthians 5:17)
Tina, the loved child of God. (Ephesians 1:4)
Tina, the close child of God. (Ephesians 2:13)
Tina, the confident child of God. (Ephesians 3:12)
Tina, the victorious child of God (Romans 8:37)
I was made to be set free, holy, new, loved, and confident. Because of this, I can’t allow myself to partake in anything that negates my true identity. Be it a relationship in which someone makes me feel less than my true identity or that leaves me defeated and imprisoned, I must remember I was made for more. The truth of my identity as a child of God empowers me to believe that living in”

Excerpt From: TerKeurst, Lysa. “Made to Crave.” Zondervan, 2010. iBooks. 
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