I have self-esteem issues. Always have.
I have never been satisfied with the way I look. I have moments that I think..."I look sort of cute " but those days are few and far between. I would never have surgery to alter...wait...yes I would. I would like to have my nose redone, the turkey neck thing needs to go, the bags under my eyes, maybe some Botox in a few areas, the Lap-Band surgery would be perfect, and then a doctor could go in there and completely lift, tuck and adjust everything!
Will I be satisfied?
Why can't I be happy with the way my Father designed me? Does He get offended when people re-do His handy work? As if they are saying...I can do better than you can. Like this woman - 10 surgeries in one day.
This is the before and after shot. Her favorite new thing about her make-over...her chin. Her husband's favorite new thing...her hair. Is she happy? Did this satisfy her...is she really happy?
I know that surgery will not satisfy me. I have to learn to be happy in my own skin and accept who I am. I have to learn to love myself.
I heard a quote the other day from Gabourey Sidibe that I really loved. In fact I printed it on special paper and have it posted in several spots around my house. She said:
"I love myself because I am so much more than what I look like".